Tag Archives: Cults

I Lost You

You, Had made me feel free. Like that one time, When I wanted nothing more than to jump into the ocean. Remember? I had a fear of sharks and jellyfish. You held my hand and ran with me. Let me … Continue reading

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Looking Back: Calvary Chapel Hanford

“For such men are false apostles, deceitful workmen, disguising themselves as apostles of Christ. And no wonder, for even Satan disguises himself as an angel of light. So it is no surprise if his servants, also, disguise themselves as servants … Continue reading

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Leaving Church Ostracized and Discriminated Against For Her Disability

When she asked why I have PTSD, I told her that I was not comfortable sharing that with her. She then proceeded to tell me that if I was really a good Christian… if I REALLY trusted God, then there … Continue reading

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As A Christian, I’m A Fucking Mess

“What I noticed at Grace-Calvary is the same thing I notice whenever people aim to solve their conflicts with one another by turning to the bible: defending the dried ink marks on the page becomes more vital than defending their neighbor. As a general rule, I would say that human beings never behave more badly toward one another than when they believe they are protecting God. In the words of Arun Gandhi, grandson of Mohandas, ‘People of the Book risk putting the book above people.”
― [url href=”https://www.goodreads.com/work/quotes/124728-leaving-church-a-memoir-of-faith” target=”blank_”]Barbara Brown Taylor, Leaving Church: A Memoir of Faith [/url] Continue reading

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Toxic Reflecting Pools

Drown me, In the quiet of your unbelief. In filthy waters infecting. Cleanse me, Of everything you found disgusting. Hold me under Wash me clean. Until the sin in me stops breathing. I am so sorry For my sinful breath. … Continue reading

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Of God and Cancer

In 2006 I lost my mother. Cancer came back for a second bout; took what it was unable to take in the first fight. After her passing I opened up my closet to find the best outfit to hold myself … Continue reading

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