Tag Archives: Anxiety

Dive In

Dive Into this Blood on the floor; Resuscitation. Heart beating pulsation; Perfectly timed compression. Light Dimming and winking out. In eyes that have never seen, But are so goddamned afraid. And I, Am terribly afraid. This ocean is too big. … Continue reading

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Looking Back: Calvary Chapel Hanford

“For such men are false apostles, deceitful workmen, disguising themselves as apostles of Christ. And no wonder, for even Satan disguises himself as an angel of light. So it is no surprise if his servants, also, disguise themselves as servants … Continue reading

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Inner Glow

Today, May light, Life, And love, Be yours. Let the dark cower In the presence of your inner glow. Beautiful. I swear, You have more strength Than you know.

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Leaving Church Ostracized and Discriminated Against For Her Disability

When she asked why I have PTSD, I told her that I was not comfortable sharing that with her. She then proceeded to tell me that if I was really a good Christian… if I REALLY trusted God, then there … Continue reading

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Broken Promises of the Mental Health Care System

The past few days have been filled with breakdowns and hospitals. I find myself desperately calling out for help, but it seems unless I threaten self harm, then no one is willing to help. Listening to news commentators and politicians … Continue reading

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This Ugly Broken Misfit Skin

This skin is an uncomfortably ill fitted soul covering. Worn down from years of battle scars, ink marks, and stretching itself beyond its means. A lesser concern to the yearning burning within to obtain the knowledge one’s self. Etched with … Continue reading

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Disregard…I’m Trying to Center Myself

There are nights, like tonight, when the anxiety is too much. It rises up like some primal fear telling you to run. I want nothing more than to make it stop. I can’t focus. My stomach is in knots. There … Continue reading

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