Broken Promises of the Mental Health Care System

MalkavianweirdoThe past few days have been filled with breakdowns and hospitals. I find myself desperately calling out for help, but it seems unless I threaten self harm, then no one is willing to help.

Listening to news commentators and politicians discuss the mental health system is painfully offensive. I’m in that broken system. I’m living it; and living it in an environment where it should be least problematic.

Certain protocols prevent me from speaking specifically to the 17 month journey of asking for help. There are things, I believe, meant to prevent me from calling out specific people and organizations.

All I want is to get better; to be better. My goals are specific, to learn to manage this overwhelming depression, ground myself when the anxiety takes hold, and receive a proper medication to manage this dangerous imbalance.

Simple enough?

379px-MadlHatterByTenniel_svgThe system, however, doesn’t work.  It forces people like me into a corner; forces us to consider self harm as an option, if only to underscore the serious nature of our request for help.

I’m drowning here. I’m in a system that does  not work; one that can cost lives in its failure.

I’m angry, and I understand why this system protects itself from malpractice suits.

About St Basil Z Fish

Curator of the strange and incredibly awkward. A rambling writer with the misguided notion he has something to say. His only redeeming qualities are his wife and children.
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10 Responses to Broken Promises of the Mental Health Care System

  1. midimike says:

    The broken system has cost too many lives. I completely agree with you. In our area, mental institutions won’t admit you unless you’ve already attempted suicide. If you are trying to be pro-active, they think you aren’t in bad enough shape to need help. As a parent of someone with a mental disorder, I don’t agree with so many parts of the mental health system.

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  2. Such true statements. It often seems that no one is willing to help unless they see blood. I’ve been dealing with depression at various levels for the last 12 years. It seems that the people who help the most have been those who aren’t the professionals. But I’m grateful that last year I finally found a therapist who actually does help and cares and has stuck with me through the most growth-filled year of my life. Ironically, what I couldn’t find in advanced medicine in the US, I was able to find here in a little third-world country, and at less than half the expense.

    I hope you keep looking for the right help and that you will find it.

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