I sit and write with trembling hands, racing heart, and a disquieted mind. Anxiety has stolen my peace, so I’ve come here to my safe place balancing caffeine, nicotine, and a nip of bourbon; hoping to find my grounding.
I will spare you the details of the madness picking up and whipping around me in gale force winds. Instead I want to try an exercise that was discussed in the Writing 101 course I’m enrolled in (which I’ve horribly neglected due to life). The general overview of this practice is to have a coffee break and engage in discussion.
I hope you don’t mind if I smoke as well, but it is a calming practice.
As I’ve become more serious about my writing, I have been considering creating an author persona. What I mean is I have been mulling over the creation of an author-specific social media presence. Facebook, Google Plus, etc. profiles for professional presence and development.
I’m holding back because I think it might be jumping the gun. Trying to get published and being published are two completely different realms of existence. At what point do you present yourself as professional writer ready to take on the world?
Even still, I also think my approach may be wrong. Perhaps instead of presenting myself as an author I should be presenting myself as a poet. It is much more honest, but is it a thing? Is there a milestone that must be reached before you proclaim yourself for what you are inside?
I am a poet. I write poetry. It is what I do. It is what I know. It’s saving my life.
Much of my uncertainty is reinforced with my research into poetry societies, groups, and publishers. It encourages my fears that I am a fake, fraud, phony because I am not where these amazing artist are.
I hope that my work speaks for me; that it is enough to vindicate what I’m doing here. Still, that fear.
I’d love to hear from you, dear reader. Are you there? Are you finding your way there? What are your experiences? Insights? Wisdoms? I don’t have many answers, but they’re out there – most likely among many of you.
Well, I’m feeling a little more grounded than I had when I started this. Thanks for letting me bend your ear.
Until next time,