Monthly Archives: September 2015

Insomnia

I haven’t known sleep in years.She eludes me.Taunts me.Tells me over and over again,That I will never catch her.She’s right. Laying here in the dark,Hoping to do well without her,I wrestle wakefulness.I am out raced by my thoughts.I tally the … Continue reading

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Never Going Back

“You have to come home.” “I don’t have to do shit.” “He’s your father!” “He was absence, violence, and tyrant! He was no father!” “You’re the oldest! It’s your responsibility!” “Stop saying that! I don’t owe him a fucking thing! … Continue reading

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Welcome to the World of Darkness

In a few hours I’ll be off. I’m not sure what this trip will bring, but I have a group of role players within my organization I look forward to gaming with. Mainly we play Pathfinder, which has been a lot … Continue reading

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It Hurts to Leave

Forgive this continous Walking away journey of roads. I never meant to leave you so entirely alone. I never meant to stay out in this cold. But I go where I am called That I might keep you safe. Love. … Continue reading

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Ten Sided Dice and The Light

I’m leaving soon. It’s the demands of this job; called away at a moment’s notice. The call seems to come when I’ve just walked in the door and begun to settle. It brings with it so much frustration and anxiety; especially when stepping … Continue reading

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Deals and Devils

It’s 4 a.m. Morning. Far too early; far too soon. There is a rampant thumping pounding hammering away at the insides of my skull. I can tell, by the amnesia and the empty bottles of bourbon falling to the floor as … Continue reading

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Reckless Unraveling

I am recklessly Hopelessly Trying to understand the breakdown Unraveling in my head. A damn dam bursting into so much broken stone. Flooding thoughts With the cacophonous chorus Of bubbling Babbling Screaming. Unanswered questions, What ifs, If onlys, Only If … Continue reading

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Timeout in a Ghost Town

I sit and write with trembling hands, racing heart, and a disquieted mind. Anxiety has stolen my peace, so I’ve come here to my safe place balancing caffeine, nicotine, and a nip of bourbon; hoping to find my grounding. I … Continue reading

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Elevators and Spines

I want nothing more Than to write myself whole; To pick up the pieces Slipping through my fingers Into the cracks of our sidewalk. That place Where I once tread carefully To avoid breaking the backs Of those Who made … Continue reading

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The Strange Fiction of Friday Phrases

She fell broken from its grasp. Her life extinguished like a candle's light against a sudden breeze. The Beast was fed, yet unsatisfied. #FP — ZedZeddicus (@Zedzeddicus) September 11, 2015 This week’s participation in the Friday Phrases (#FP) event found … Continue reading

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Just Going to Leave This Here

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Storytelling: The Long Morning

“Zed!” Zed. It isn’t my real name, but it’s the name I use. I read it in a book once; felt kinship with it, now I tell everyone it’s my name. “Come out. Your wards may prevent us from entering, but … Continue reading

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5 Minute Non-Stop – The Godless God People

Don’t tell me about God’s people when pointing to the many reflections and copies of yourself. Don’t tell me about God’s people when pointing to a romanticized Israel – ignoring the fact that she is pagan, atheist, and racist. Don’t … Continue reading

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Hard Lessons

Three months and four days ago, I submitted my first poem for publication. The average response time, according to PoetryFoundation.org‘s submission page, is four months. In the past three months and four days, I have learned so much more about … Continue reading

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A Bedtime Prayer for Children

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